A Legacy Cut Short

 

 

Not A King

 

I hate to admit this about myself, but I’ve had to fight from the inside to find a reason to smile from

When I was young as I didn’t always fit in and there weren’t enough people to save me from feelings

Not covered in golden light and without certain people in my life, I go crazy not knowing where the

Shining beacons of hope are and if they’re doing all right as the world rocks back and forth between

Order and chaos with people spreading a terrible plague and how can you keep yourself alive when a

Vast portion of the population refuse treatment due to a corrupt leader who wants us all dead unless

Everyone bows down to former authority and if another one bites the dust every minute from being

Victims of the miracles called compassion, then humanity is doomed with such horrors at the helm.

 

Some people live their lives like it’s some party that they don’t have to clean up whatever large mess

Burdens those who weren’t invited, but are forced to put out the fire before it reduces everything to

Ash and nothing will be able to grow out of such a wasteland and the procession of innocent toward

Oblivion will be longer than most dare to imagine, but you either learn to play the game with sinister

Rules or find a way to fight back before it’s far too late because who wants to live forever in misery.

 

Even if you know someone immune to despair, it’s a hard life for anyone a part of the poor human

Race that can’t go for very long without some innuendo ruining sweet moments or being used as the

Cruel weapon to remove competition from jealousy and/or dread of others having a good reason to

Smile, giving strength to escape the swamp of grungy people who feel that others have to suffer for

Proof that this is how the broken world really works and the words of love quickly fall on deaf ears.

 

One thing I’ve learned about life is that action this day can have a large impact in the future and with

The chaos building like cotton candy in slow motion, but in a flash everything is gone or in a deeper

Hole than anticipated and while everyone in it will say I want to break free, the fact the evil hole was

Brought into existence means our staying power reservoir has all but dried up and society will learn a

Thirst not easily quenched and society’s hot space serves as retribution for not taking action sooner.

 

Sure, rain must fall at some point, but how much will be given and would it be out of shame or for

Those who have put in the effort to dispel evil as they remembered life is real and must be protected

Against the impending oblivion and that further wonders are coming soon to confront those with an

Unhealthy desire to see others struck down like they had a sheer heart attack that cannot be survived

Without surrendering to the new authority and any recent delights were nothing but terrible misfires.

 

To those who claim that they’ve found total happiness, you don’t fool me with your luxury items or

Trouble is just an illusion and a little body language can send the message of discontent even with a

Smile stretched ear to ear in order to pull off another performance of the great pretender attempting

Appeasement for an audience that has lost most of its interest while you’re still the dancer to a song

Void of reason, meaning you’ll be the loser in the end like the rest of us unless you rediscover some

Compassion for others before we all go stone cold crazy from too much distrust and sorrow that the

World turns to poison that has no antidote and good company is nothing but a very pathetic dream.

 

To my dear friends, I’m fortunate that we’ve had a few chances to be together during a time where a

Safer distance became the norm in which lazing on a Sunday afternoon blends into the remainder of

The week before turning to months, but then we lived under pressure of hearing more people were

Lost from those who couldn’t wait to leave their homes because isolation is torture and a scandal for

Those who don’t have much to share with the world and it’s hard to hang on in there when more of

An already small circle of good people gets small and I wondered if friends will be friends with other

Rules for who receives information, but I’m sadly used to being the invisible man even when happy.

 

Many don’t know what friendship means to me because it’s a kind of magic that often makes various

Dark memories not so dark and allows me to see past the horizon and my melancholy blues take on

Brighter colors so I can ride the wild wind when it finally blows my direction so I can enjoy myself a

Little while, but pain is so close to pleasure that happiness isn’t meant to last with its full flavor and I

Learn that it’s not healthy to go headlong into the next great opportunity, where it’s easy to get badly

Hurt beyond repair and I always ask was it all worth it feasting on the filthy crumbs of the fortunate?

 

It’s late and I can’t sleep because there hasn’t been much excitement of late to exhaust my energy for

An easy chance of rest with thoughts racing, but unable to escape when the night comes down and a

Restless mind keeps the body awake and you might as well be sleeping on the sidewalk from no true

Comfort can’t be achieved until you beat the mental bicycle race while remaining as still as possible,

Taunted by the shadows and imagined stars as they whisper let me entertain you as time slowly slips

By with frustrated glances at the clock, preventing a made in heaven slumber to find strength for the

Approaching day with many like thinking now I’m here and am very tired for all the wrong reasons.

 

Even when I can fall asleep, waking up is challenging because I wonder is this the world we created

Using the suffering of others with no end in sight as many anxiously wait for the hammer to fall for

Another scramble to the top so that a lucky few can join the millionaire waltz while remaining poor

Without friends to share the prophet’s song in how to step out of the darkness and remember what

Joyous times were like, but too much love will kill you because you either don’t want to give up such

Feelings or have to meet the standards of other overly happy people and if you can’t beat them with

Other emotions then you’ll learn that sweetness can be toxic and no one but you will have to find an

Emotional insulin to take a break from too much positive energy or prove only the good die young.

 

No matter what I do to keep myself in good spirits, I'm going slightly mad waiting for any signs the

Winds of fate will change, but no matter who’s watching me or isn’t the show must go and everyone

Must play their parts as these are the days of our lives and we can’t do much on our own to discover

Ways to make it easier to say it’s a beautiful day without feeling sick from the bittersweet tastes from

Tolerating poisoned words because a crazy little thing called love isn’t in my corner and the chances

For someone unable to control his emotions to find such luck is slim and a day at the races seems to

Provide better odds to let me live without feeling hollow and to trust people who have brought me a

Limited amount of joy, but I want it all in terms of a proper relationship to see what the future and I

Dread living on my own when my limited family passes on or just stops caring about the one dismal

Member who didn’t sit in the lap of gods to obtain influence either by hard work or dooming others.

 

At least I can save my life has been saved with the help of my readers and if they support my strange

Musical interpretations often triggered when the radio gaga of the past returns out of the blue and in

Time the makings of another poem comes to light, albeit in random pieces so that a lost opportunity

For unfamiliar songs to be heard because it’s important to spread your wings and if you can discover

New ways to make others smile, then perhaps the dreamer’s ball isn’t a fantasy for creative minds to

Flee reality, but don’t stop me now because I’ve had a few darker creations that were also your fault.

 

To those who are reading this first, you’re my best friends no matter what may happen in the future,

Remember the good times we’ve had together and don’t lose your head when the skies become grey

Longer than anticipated because we are the champions who will see the rays of glory emerging for a

Chance at paradise and if evil says a difficult contract must be forged first, tear it up as that’s the bad

Energy trying to work its way into places it doesn’t belong and to cast the one vision of limited color

Among the grey, yet there can be heaven for everyone if we keep each other in our hearts and when

Comfort is needed, let us cling together to share in our triumphs and failures because when I see this

Shared release, you take my breath away and that means we’re still human in a world of zombies.